Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes and Growths!

     Sitting in Intro to Horticulture class, I finished grading all the cherub's papers. So many people kept giving them to me last minute though!! Give it to me before the break man!! Or right before the end of the break!! I thought I was done, ha ha. Anyways, I just got off of spring break today, with much success. During the break I reorganized my room, washed all my laundry, donated some clothes, recorded my supplies for my shop from my receipts, cleaned in and off my desk and used it for studying for the first time in years!!!, kept up with eating fruits, veggies, and whole grains as much as possible, exercised 3 days out of the week for at least 45 mins each day, realized my shop name, my boyfriend started working on my shop's website,  turned in my CMSP form, Ran a horticulture club meeting, volunteered for Chairman of the Horticulture Spring Plant sale, got a horticulture student $200 Scholarship,worked in my garden and helping my sprout-lings grow, and spent much time relaxing, meditating, a little bit of video games and raising my vibration.
     I was surfing my tumblr today, and came across a free PDF that speaks upon enlightenment and how to get there. Which I've read quite a few enlightenment books and information varying from Edgar Cayce to present Guru's whose mission is to help others find their enlightenment. It asked me what my aspiration is in my life..to really think about it. I know I want to be a healer of the planet and the life on it, to help others including myself through this rough vibration raising period,  it's a good thing to think about, to ponder, to meditate on...I've come to know I am to be a healer through many signs, including that of dreams, and information that seeped to me when I used to meditate more regularly...until life got in the way ha ha. But throughout this year I've dedicated myself to meditations, and tomorrow night for the New Moon Esbat I will make sure to take this life aspiration business into my meditation that night, write down my feelings..make sure that I still feel the same or maybe I find some new aspiration...but I feel I know what my life aspiration is already..to heal and explore myself, my brothers and sisters, and my Mother Gaia..it feels too right...and too many signs are there...I listen..I feel..I am an empathetic being..I am a Spiritual Being having a Human Experience...and it's becoming more wonderful and awe inspiring...I feel almost like I am being re-birthed . being the world once again like a child..I spent some time looking around me at the world..just..being..and noticed the Magick that pulsates throughout it...the interconnected web of unity..energy..we are not alone..I am not alone..I have me..I have we..We are one..and One are all.
     On another note, I will be and have been working on sleeping early on a normal schedule (sooo difficult for n insomniac/night owl) in order to help my body become attuned to the earth better, myself better, and  possibly help me out with my fibromyalgia..honestly I did a lot better than i thought I would on spring break..my latest time being up at 3am and my latest time getting up was about 12:30-1 pm...So not too bad..I am making much progress..which is hard for someone with fibro needing 10 hrs of sleep to feel slightly normal. The change of diet has been improving my health for sure though, and the tie I spend doing gardening, exercising, and getting some sun daily does also have an improved effect on my overall stress level and well being. I am trying to balance myself, unravel my ego as much as I can, and really get to the core of my being..therefore..helping others, healing others, and teaching others to do the same. Be the change you want to see in the world.
    Time for me to log, it's been a long day, woke up at 5:30 am ..unheard of for me!!! I even got some studying done for the horticulture quiz this morning, which totally helped. I am happy, I am awesome, I am proud of me!!!
Have a great evening all!!
     Blessed Be,
                     SunShine-Luna
P.S. I have also added to my Magickal name, Luna, I feel it describes me even better than it did before, but I could never give up my original Magickal name...so I decided adding it would be more appropriate, especially after feeling that I am both the Sun and the Moon at the same time, and getting quite a few signs that I needed to balance my name..also being an aquarian I am slightly androgynous  and I was born a few days from the full moon. The moon has been an ever evolving/engulfing/grounding being for me, and I am honored to add her to my name..I've always had an affinity for the symbol "Yin and Yang" I used to believe it was just for soul mates when I was a teen, but now I realize it is everything, especially me..and The moon is the Sun's balance..I have strong moon and sun signs in my chart...Cancer for my emotions and Leo for my mind..it is amazing that I never thought of it before. Also with a bit of research with numerology I found that together it, the names make the number 6..a strong care giving number, harmonious, empathetic, one that loves to heal, teach, protecting and really just loves everyone unconditionally (a trait that I am still improving), it's a motherly number and that's the vibe I want to give off..love..care..knowledge..comfort..healing...so many new changes..so many things..well now I'm really tired and logging off...Blessed Be all!!

Merry Belated Ostara!!!

Merry Belated Ostara all!!

It's been a wonderful couple of days and I have been celebrating the coming of spring all week. I've been cleaning my room, my kitchen, my back yard, caring for plants and creating/using a new homemade Lemon all purpose cleaner! And it works amazing, it cuts grease like nothing..so I'll be selling it in my shop when I have all the legal aspects done. There's so much I need to do!! I'm going to be creating a Video Response to TipToeChick's "A new year a New you" soon to show my progress, and to connect with the community a bit. I plan on making quite a few more Vlogs on my youtube channel about gardening, composting, and just plain rants..I just need to find ways to express myself and to help others in any healthy helping way that I can.  Tonight I'm going to buy some well needed groceries(since I finally have a little money and my car back in working order!!), put my plants back in the green house, Press my specimens, put the others on index cards for class, clean up the rest of my room, take care of me cats, then meditate and do a chakra cleanse tonight. Tomorrow I want to do my Vlog, laundry, garden, and  write down my costs for my shop. Then do some homework and find an article for horticulture class, study my specimens, and review notes. I have quite a bit to do...and still some to do right now! So I'm about to sign off and get back to studying before I have to go off and do all these things!!! Ahhh!!!! Have a merry Spring all!! 

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P.S. Maybe I'll have some time to play the sims this weekend...I get to spend this weekend with the love of my life..I am so lucky!

Good things to come...

It has been quite beautiful out here in Cali lately, the birds have been chirping and the flowers are beginning to bloom. I recently was awarded a 20 X 20 ft garden plot by my horticulture club. I am super excited because I finally get to start the garden I've always wanted, filled with herbs and my own fruits and veggies all of course grown organically!! Good thing I started up that compost pile last fall! It's not quite ready for 20x20 ft of land but it will continue to grow and then I will be completely self-sustained and not have to go to the major markets as much anymore!! Even donate some to food drives, and possibly make a speech for the hort club next year about organic gardening..along with what to do with certain plants to make your own non-chemical products. I am just filled with so many ideas this Mercury retrograde, I suppose that's because it is in the sign of Pisces..the creation/imaginative/inventive sign.
In other news, Robert has been working a bit on Dreamweaver to prep for making my website, and I need to delve into the legal aspects a bit..a lot more..need to dust off my old business textbook and get down to business!! At least get this business up and running! :) I cannot wait!!!!
I hope everyone has a fabulous evening, I am off to go study some more for my Philosophy exam tomorrow morning(man philosophy is hard to get my brain around but it's starting to click, it's good to be open-minded and to explore new things..never let doubts nor beliefs get in the way of keeping your mind open and learning new things!!) Much love and light!!
Blessed Be,
               SunShine ;)

Good News and Shoppys too!!

      Been a busy bee lately. Just finished making up my all-purpose lemon cleaner, and Lavender detergent/hair conditioner. It's been crazy looking up business registration in my area so I don't get in trouble with the law...even though I won't be making enough at first to really be considered a business. I have also decided that it is almost time to start taking appointments for Reiki sessions and Divination readings. I'm running out of money and need to start up my business like planned before I don't have anything at all. But I'm not starting up this business for money I am starting it to help others through nature, spirituality, and energy work. But it would be nice to not be completely broke...just enough to get me by and keep the business afloat after it's started would be nice right now. I will be doing a lot of giveaways for certain Sabbats, and other holidays/events. I think you all will be fully satisfied!! Also, I want to start posting more Vlogs and help/how to vlogs as well. My plan is to have my shop up and running by Ostara...we shall see how that pans out!!
      Oh and other good news!! The burlesque show was a total success!! We all did fantastic, had a blast, and so did the audience. It was a definite confidence booster...I have never felt so comfortable in my own skin, nonetheless as Sexy as I do now. Everyone is beautiful, everyone's body is beautiful and yes you are beautiful and never ever forget that!!! Everyone has insecurities but if you choose to do something even though your EGO is telling you how horrible you look, or that you are not good enough...do it anyway!!! Just do it! Dance in your car, sing on stage, dance to the beat you hear in the mall, and when you are offered something that you feel would be fun, then do it!!! Don't let your EGO get in the way...you are perfect just the way you are!!! And I have found myself more and more by pushing myself to the limit and ignoring my ego telling me what I can't do!! F-You EGO! I'm beautiful, and so are you!!
     One more piece of good news, I finally got my Garden plot from the Horticulture club!! 20x20 ft of land all to myself to play with!! I've never planted/grown anything in the land so i'm going to have to talk to my professor in what to do with said land. I've been researching a lot about it..and I'll be planting lots of herbs, fruits, and veggies all year round...I cannot wait!!!
     I am a truly lucky and blessed individual, I am so very grateful.

Life update and unexpected rant.

     It's been a long couple of weeks, been working on keeping up in school, the dance group, socially, cats, family, friends, Robert, and spiritually. It's been a crazy balancing act..so I can't wait til the dance group finally performs and will allow me to free up some time. But of course we plan on doing another show but we seem to all be in agreement that it needs to be after this semester is over. Most of us girls are pretty busy with school, work, and other commitments we have made this semester. Are show is this Saturday...three days away I am so nervous, but we got this!!
     The days have just been flying by this year, I cannot believe we are almost in March now, It's probably due to the increased acceleration of our planet..or maybe it's just because at this time everything seems to be picking up speed because everyone's busy..or maybe it's both... I have to finish up two scholarships before the deadline, which with Mercury retrograde has made a bit difficult since I keep having delays. But I have been asking the God Mercury aka Hermes to help me in travel, deadlines, and all that can go wrong in this retrograde. I have had a few technical difficulties and my mind has been really forgetful lately, but so long as I ask for help, continue throughout the retrograde in patients, self reflection and communicate carefully  I should be fine.
     This next month what I will be working on most is getting my shop up and running. I have been slowly working on it but I have yet to start making more items, taking pictures (Thanks to my practically new camera's lens not working had to get that fixed..which it is now!!), nor put them up on Etsy or my Facebook page yet. I have been so busy with school, friends, family, the dance group, and making my love happy. But I need to definitely spend some home time and get some stuff done!!! Also wanted to start making more YouTube videos, I haven't done them in a while because my iflip stopped working and my webcam doesn't work as well for videos...especially since I run around a lot with the camera haha...which reminds me I have one to put up right now from Imbolc!! **Goes to post it up on YouTube**..for those of you who do not know my channel it is: SunShineTheWitch's Channel      **Video is now uploading!!**

      Ugh, my Mom just came into my room to complain about my Dad...she just can't not talk shit about him at some point. I do not want that negativity in my room...I think I need to have a talk with her about it...like do not come to me..especially in my room which is my sacred space to spew your negativity in...now I feel irritated and icky..because she was so into the shit she was talking that she didn't even want to listen to ANYTHING I had to say..it's my room dude..and you came to me..to pour your negativity on me and then leave...I do not appreciate it..nor do i want her letters in my room anymore, those are the two things that she needs to abide by before I go crazy. 1. No spewing negativity in my room..do it in your room..I don't want your negativity nor do I want to hear it when I'm busy or trying to do homework..I know you don't feel that I am busy nor do you care but it kind of pisses me off. 2. No more notes under my door, it always puts me in a bad mood because of bad experiences when I was little..like 10 and you'd leave me 10 page notes on what I did wrong, what I needed to do, and if I didn't do what you'd tell me to do then I'd be in some kind of trouble...or I was so horrible for leaving dirty dishes..I was a kid..and even as a teen..I was just a teen..and even though I clean my own dishes and work my ass off I feel taken advantage of because you do not appreciate it. You tell me how much I used to love your notes, yes used to because you crammed that shit down my throat so much I loathe seeing them..I feel it's an invasion of my sacred space, puts me in a bad mood in the morning instantly because I still have the same feelings as when I was younger..but worse..So no more of that. And by the way if you want to come into my room and complain about Dad spending money, you best expect I am going to say something about the Car he has owed me since 2010. Yet you "don't want to get into that" with him because you don't get into everything else with him..that's my job...how? I'll just make it worse...because it will be "disrespectful" to him to ask for such things...but yet he promised it to me for when i graduated high school..I want my car...My mom says..well you practically own my car...and I'm like yes well that's all an good BUT 1. not the point and 2. Whether she wants to admit it, or even like it (which she wont) but the time for me to move out is coming soon...I can feel it..if I stay here too much longer I feel it really can damage my relationship with my mother. I'm 22, my boyfriend Robert and I have been talking about moving out..within the next year or so..and I'm hoping sooner rather than later. And my Mom and I's relationship is already being strained..since she doesn't understand that I'm not that 10 yr old she can tell what to do anymore..I am an adult..who is dependent on her mother still....but I am not a maid, I am not to be spoken down to or treated like a child...I feel there's a thin line...she argues that we are NOT roommates..but we are...she will always be my parent, my mom, but at this point the child/teen/adolescent part of our relationship needs to be let go. I'm not saying I don't appreciate all my mother does for me, I mean she lets me live here for free, lets me have friends and boyfriend over whenever,  allows me to use the car for school and almost anything I want, lets me practice my spirituality however I please and even has long enthralling convos with me about spirituality itself..I am well aware of how lucky I really am..but that doesn't discard the fact that she can't tell me to do something "right now"...I do go to school and get paid for it, working on filling out scholarships, volunteering for my horticulture club events, being the President of the Horticulture club, taking care of my animals, myself, my spirituality, the dance group, spending some time with my boyfriend who by the way lives 40 mins away, and trying to get my shop up and running...so it's not like I'm sitting in my room all the time doing nothing..and when that does happen..on a very rare occasion..it's because I want and NEED to relax...and I also have fibromyalgia to deal with so that makes each day a little harder than the average person's day...because If I overwork myself, eat something wrong, or get stressed out/irritated..I fall ill...my body aches and then my head hurts..may get nauseous depending on the day..and it's a lot to handle..While she doesn't really do much of anything at all...all day...she makes herself sick by eating bad food, junk food, meat, no exercise ever, never going out into the sun, refuses to have any normal sleep schedule, never drinks water, or even go to the doctor..she has high blood pressure, osteoporosis, and her teeth are falling out...yet she wonders why she doesn't ever feel good, and wonders why I get irritated when she asks me to do something last minute, or why I don't have time to sit and watch TV all day with her, or even a conversation..because when I'm busy it doesn't seem like she gives a damn because she isn't busy...so my time is irrelevant. I have things to do...and if you need me to do something..ask ahead of time!
Anyways...enough with my rant..phew..I feel better..haven't written that much in a long while. I'm not trying to be negative but if I kept it in any longer I would have exploded..it looks like I need a good talk with my mom..but that will have to wait til I get other things done, and I am more calm...lol.
Off to go get things done academically before I get picked up for dance practice, then have to come home and go to sleep to get up at 6am tomorrow..yay!! So much...to do..glad I took only 7 units this semester..for the first time ever of not being a full time student..still feels like I'm doing just as much work..hopefully everything balances out soon..you all have a blessed night!!
Much Love,
                SunShine    

Sleep..sleep..and many things..

Purely exhausted, and still so much to do...since I've been super busy constantly my body is starting to feel the pain. Yay fibromyalgia...well at least I'm spending time with friends, and getting my homework done. I even got an A on my Plant ID quiz today, Read my "How to Raise your Vibration" book, hung out with Robert this morning, my friends Kat and Gina, Played with Poi, and even ate at my favorite and only vegan restaurant. Now I'm TA-ing in the Intro to Horticulture class, working on 6 hrs of sleep and then I'll go home and put on make-up for my dance practice tonight...we will be taking pictures and such for flyers...and practice poi with Gina more since we are adding it to our act...which means I need to work with Poi daily from now on..which scares me...terrified of messing up on stage..it sounded cool at the time but now I realize how rusty I am, and we only have two more weeks or so..le sigh...I am so tired...

Vegans, Dancing, and Crystals, Oh my!!!!

 Spent the weekend and Monday with Robert, and Mikol. Going to be in a Burlesque show, when I was told about it I was not aware that it involved removing articles of clothing...classy stripteasing is what I call it. Haha. I was thinking about backing out but now I'm really excited, I get to dance, entertain, and spend girl time with my friends, we don't spend a lot of time together so it's nice that it's going to be every tues night...the downfall is that its tues night at 9:45 pm after being up since 6 am..it's pushing me a bit to the limit, but maybe that's what I need. I'm not taking on anymore!! But it does help with my goals to volunteer and  exercise. I'm the president of the Hort club, my Hort Professors TA in the evening, go to his class in the morning at 8 am and sometimes walk around in the cold morning looking at plants and collecting specimens (which is awesome!!! But sometimes painful due to my disability), not to mention the countless things my mom asks me to get..tomorrow I'm going to take the car to get its breaks checked with my best friend Deanna.

  Also went off to check out a Vegan place that my friend Lauren told me about last week..it's so friggin' awesome!!! The people there are super nice and sweet, very informative, and so many other nice people there. Definitely a mom and pop place, where everyone knows everyone..it's turning into quite a hot-spot. But as I was driving to check this place out I was sure that I was going to run into someone that I knew there..once I got there I ran into Maddy and someone that's a member of the horticulture club as well. I met Maddy through my friend Josh, who just went through a spiritual awakening. Maddy is super spiritual and we have a ton of the same beliefs, astrology, microbials, loving the earth, loving yourself, loving your body, loving each other, sacred geometry, yoga, meditation, and apparently nutrition and vegetarianism. I spent the afternoon with her and her friend/fellow horticulture club member Kimberly. I gave her a choice of the prosperity crystals that  I had left, and she took a red tiger eye, and Kimberly took a hematite. :) I'm super happy to have been able to give these wonderful tools and properity energy to others, also for my dollars I gave one to tipping the employees at Vegan Paradice. It's been a good day..and it's far from over...at least the evening that is...after Berlesque practice I am going to take a hot hot shower..hopefully...off I go woo!